alright the title is a bit much but i dunno its been a bad few days. so not only did my ex-roommate who i love have another little cry attack today and has been feeling like shit.
one of my "friends" hit her head last night causing drama and well i am still not a fan.
along with this though i am going on what looks to be the worst biking trip of all time because not only am i the only upperclassman but they are all retarded freshmen who i want to murder.
ok but i guess the thing that drove me to right this was the guy i have liked for likes ages just sort of told me he has a mega crush on one of my best friends here. awkward much? but seriously i get it because i am not pretty or funny compared to this girl. and i know soon enough i won't even like him and it'll all me ok. but it does make me a little happy that she knows i like him and to my knowledge thinks of him only as a friend. because fi they did go out... wow that would be awkward and suck.

but anyway i am just having a rough time because of tons of details i didn't mention because i don't have the time, energy, or heart to write it. so i will be back on saturday or sunday night and since you guys don't read these its ok. i dunno i am seriously contemplating suicide again (not cause the guy, i'm not that much of a sap) but because life has just been going bad to worse and its gets harder to handle.

i'll deal though, i always do even without help